about me

i am sometimes thought of as a potentially creative girl, delicately lovely; sometimes as a somewhat older woman, intelligent but rather pedantic and spinsterish. The latter impression of me is sometimes confirmed by the Virgoan preciseness, refinement, fastidious love of cleanliness, hygiene and good order, conventionality and aristocratic attitude of reserve. I am usually observant, shrewd, critically inclined, judicious, patient, practical supporters of the status quo, and tend toward conservatism in all departments of life. On the surface I am emotionally cold, and sometimes it goes deeper, for my habit of suppressing my natural kindness may in the end cause it to atrophy, with the result that i shrink from committing myself to friendship, make few relationships, and those i do make are careful to keep superficial. But the outward lack of feeling may conceal too much emotion, to which i am afraid of giving way because i do not trust others, nor do i have confidence in myself and their judgments. This is because i am conscious of certain shortcomings in myself of worldliness, of practicality, of sophistication and of outgoingness. So i bring the art of self concealment to a high pitch, hiding my apprehensiveness about myself and my often considerable sympathy with other people under a mantle of matter-of-factness and undemonstrative, quiet reserve. i am still waters that run deep. Yet in my unassuming, outwardly cheerful and agreeable fashion, i can be sensible, discreet, well spoken, wise and witty, with a good understanding of other people's problems which i can tackle with a practicality not always evident in my own personal relationships. I have considerable charm and dignity, appear effeminate when i am not. In marriage i can be genuinely affectionate, making good spouse and parent, but my love making is a perfection of technique rather than the expression of desire, and i must be careful not to mate with a partner whose sex drive requires a passion i cannot match. (ahahaha) I am intellectually inquiring, methodical and logical, studious and teachable. I combine mental ingenuity with the ability to produce a clear analysis of the most complicated problems.

my shoutout

"actus me invito factus non est meus actus" an act done by me against my will is not my act."