Saturday, July 12, 2008

Realization.

I am not my mistakes. I can't do this alone or pretend any more. The illusion of comfort in denial or sacrifice is no longer mine. There is no shame in my suffering -- no healing in silent self-torment. It is here at the surreal crossroads of the "soul search" where dawning truth meets the anguish of overwhelming resistance in mind over matter that I can finally wake up, change my mind, let go of what no longer works or own my losses or choices. I am empowered by intense acknowledgment or epiphany and my virtue is gratitude or relief in recognition.


An element of suffering could be difficult to handle regardless of my ability to walk away from an unhealthy situation. Denial may be worn like a cloak to hide a fear of intimacy or feelings of vulnerability. I must face unresolved issues, loss and emotional baggage. A sobering change, failure or good-bye may be inevitable, but I have reason to be grateful as well as disappointed. Taking a chance and confronting the issue could create an opportunity for reconciliation, commitment, or support that has been waiting in the wings. The situation may actually strengthen the bonds in an existing relationship when a devoted partner or reliable alliance stands by my side throughout the ordeal. When I least expect it, I could find myself happy again. I trust my heart and I open myself to forgiveness and romance.


While rising to the occasion. I keep my options open and am ready to "use it or lose it." I set trends or may be considered a "fashionista" and I initiate exciting opportunities to get attention, conquer fears, enhance reputation or image, or to express or inspire liberation-often by extreme measures. I am empowered by ambition or the "zest in quest" and I transform through charismatic communication of passion. But with all this and that, this is still me and this is all it has been me. Hence, there is no such good thing that comes the easiest way.

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